tired of waiting

mood : despair
song : my heart - 2PM

"there's just too much that one could say when he's pressed between his love and his sanity." -Bloodress

my heart ache. though i don't know why.

why? why?
i can't seem to stop loving.

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there were parts of me that's screaming and another parts lying.

and which part is screaming? why are you lying?

i'm dwelling into the past again. and i hate myself for being like this.

because sometimes you just couldn't help it. you missed him don't you?

little by little, i tried to stop this overflowing feeling. but i'm losing my sanity.

because you love him too much.

i feel worthless and that's why it just hurt more.

breathe.

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i'm stressed, i'm stressed to the core.

i hated waiting yet

it was the thing that i did the most in my life.

pity me, huh?

that's why, i won't wait for anyone anymore.

if you love me, don't make me wait.

because that's one of the thing i DESPISE the most.

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and still, i'm waiting

for you.

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"i'll just cry tomorrow

because i can't do it in front of you." - Ila

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i was interested in knowing myself. because i don't know myself worser than you.

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look at me.

and tell me that i'm beautiful.

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"i'm waiting for someone, to translate my heart." - Ila

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"don't you pity yourself? for crying out like this?" -Alexiel

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i'm missing you. more than i'm missing anyone else.

and the thought of not being able to see you ever again, made it even harder to breathe.

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"when i first saw you, you were emotionless. then i know, you're broken." - Lex

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"i'd tapped you on your shoulder. just because i want you to know that I care about you." - Camille

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someone please save me

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someone to love : Fye I. Malilith
statement of the day : my heart, is still beating