*sigh*

at last, nothing seems to come out

What love is...?

I... don't think I know what love is.

so, I am confused. since I don't know this feeling. How do I know when it is love?

is love... happening?

is love... harsh? to my heart. is this heavy beating, pain that's been wrecking into my core, love?

I don't know.

But I really wanted to say that I love you.

I'm risking my life

There's so many things that I risked my life for. But maybe, mainly for you.

Nae moksumeul geonda
I’m risking my live

Naege neoreul saranghagie nae moksumkkaju gounda
In order to love you I’m risking my life

Ireon nae maeumeul neon ani
Do you know my heart,

Jakku bogo sipeun mamana
The heart that keeps wanting to see you

Saranghagie nan moksumdo geonda
In order to love you I’m risking my life

Ah, it's tiring when you already write so long and then the internet got crazy and no draft saved. Now, I don't want to talk anymore. *cries* WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? WHY?????

2PM NEW MV IS OUT!

After waiting for their comeback, after all that we, the hottest and 2PM themselves have been through, today, they released their new MV, the same day they released their teaser if I'm not mistaken.

I love it. 2PM didn't dissapoint me at all. ANd Wooyoung got a cool solo part! I SOOOO LOVE IT!

I'll keep on supporting, both Jay and 2PM. My love for them will never stop.

I actually want to put their video here but the wifi here at the library is being a complete gay it wont let me.

Just search for the title. Hurry! Its still new! HOT AS PISANG GORENG!

Loving you like this

my heart breaks when i see you
my tears streams when you're with her
i don't know how you make me like this
but loving you just... hurts

in my lonely night, my tears are screaming out your name
slowly, just slowly my heart breaks
slowly, deeply hurting my sanity
why can't i stop loving?
why can't i stop crying?

why can't i see? we weren't meant to be?
why can't i stop hoping, wishing that we could, someday
love each other, laugh together, cry together?

everyday of the week, i keep on holding
to my slightest fantasy, where we were together
you and me, like we belong together
but we don't and my fantasy shatters
like broken pieces, glasses falling apart

HEART ATTACK!!!!!!

Ah~ Though not many knew this but I DID went to an audition for Mentor (aired on TV3). And I went to Joe Flizzow's audition. I wasn't accepted though, he told me that I wasn't ready.

So, like yesterday or so, I thought I'd send him an email via his HR department (for his record company, Cartel Record, aight?) I was being really brave in the act, since I was very scared. *Sigh* I don't know, truly, little hopes fires me up. And I was thinking about it like how Taeyang got into YG. I mean, I wanted to be like him, trained and produced by the company but after I sent it, I just thought that... It kinda sound ridiculous. And so, I think, ah~ I have no chance. But yeah, I swear to myself to not regret any of it. I think I could try the other way if this didn't work out. *long sigh*

AHHHHHHHH~~~~~~ *a long desperate scream*

And man, I got a reply today and I'm so scared to read it. ;-; It will probably be something like...

1. I'm so sorry but we don't know you.
2. I'm sorry but we have to reject you.
3. Practice more and sent us details and your demo.
4. We're not taking unknown artist like you.
5. Have you lost your mind?
6. Ha ha ha, are you kidding me?

;-; Man, you should just listen to my heartbeat. I wish they would just forget me. ;-; Ah~~~~~~~~~~~~ *cries like a kid*

WOOYOUNG-IE OPPA!!!!!!!! I'M SO SORRY I HAVE FAILED YOU!!!!!!

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here's their reply
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Dear Nur Nabilah Rosli,

Thank you for your email. We will forward this email to Joe and David of Kartel Records.

Our department is in charge of discovering and managing talents and we will be reviewing your request to audition.

You will be hearing from us shortly.

Best regards,
A&R Department
Kartel Records Sdn. Bhd.

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so.. I'll wait.

MNET Super 100 Idols

;]

1 – Big bang, Kwon Jiyong

16 – DBSK, Hero Jaejoong

17 – 2PM, Nichkhun

21 – 2AM, Jo Kwon

29 – SHINee Minho

36 – 2PM, Chansung

53 – 2PM, TaecYeon

63 – H.O.T., Moon Heejun

80 – 2PM Jaebeom

87 – F.T.Island, Choi Minhwan

Ila says, "I'm proud of you guys who made it. ^^ But I was sad that there was no other 2PM members to be seen. If the hottest didnt become antist, they would have been on the top. I know that."

from, MNET Super 100 Idols:

1 – Big bang, Kwon Jiyong
2 – Wonder Girls, Sohee
3 – DBSK, Xiah junsu
4 – Big Bang, TOP
5 – DBSK, U-Know Yunho
6 – SS501, Kim Hyunjoong
7 – Fin.K.L, Lee Hyori
8 – SNSD, Taeyeon
9 – H.O.T, Jang Woohyuk
10 – DBSK, Micky Yoochun
11 – Big Bang, Daesung
12 – SES, Yoojin
13 – Shinhwa, Eric
14 – Wonder Girls, Sunye
15 – Big Bang, Taeyang
16 – DBSK, Hero Jaejoong
17 – 2PM, Nichkhun
18 – Fin.K.L, Sung Yuri
19 – Shinee, Taemin
20 – Super Junior, Eunhyuk
21 – 2AM, Jo Kwon
22 – SNSD, Yoona
23 – G.O.D, Yoon Gyesang
24 – FT Island, Lee Hongki
25 – Sechs Kies, Eun Jiwon
26 – Dbsk, Changmin
27 – H.O.T., KangTa
28 – Wonder Girls, Sunmi
29 – SHINee Minho
30 – KARA, Han Seung Yeon
31 – Bigbang, Seungri
32 – Super Junior, Heechul
33 – H.O.T., Tony An
34 – Shinhwa, Andy
35 – Se7en
36 – 2PM, Chansung
37 – Super Junior, Shindong
38 – SS501, Kim Kyujong
39 – Wonder Girls, Yoobin
40 – SNSD, Tiffany
41 – SHINee, Onew
42 – Super Junior KangIn
43 – Wonder Girls, Yeeun
44 – F.T.Island, Choi Jong Hun
45 – Sugar, Ayumi
46 – Shinhwa, Kim Dongwan
47 – Buzz, Min Kyunghoon
48 – CSJH, Stephanie
49 – Super Junior Siwon
50 – Sechs Kies, Go Ji-Yong
51 – Jung Jihoon (Rain)
52 – S.E.S, Bada
53 – 2PM, TaecYeon
54 – KARA, Goo HaRa
55 – Super Junior Sungmin
56 – SS501, Kim Hyung Joon
57 – 1TYM, Danny
58 – Super Junior Eeteuk
59 – SHINee, Jonghyun
60 – G.O.D, Son HoYoung
61 – SNSD, Seohyun
62 – Shinhwa, Junjin
63 – H.O.T., Moon Heejun
64 – Shinhwa, Shin Hyesung
65 – Click B, Oh, JongHyeok
66 – SNSD, Yuri
67 – Super Junior, Hangyeong
68 – Sechs Kies, Jang Suwon
69 – CSJH, Dana
70 – Super Junior, Kibeom
71 – FIN.K.L, Leejin
72 – Taesaja, Park Junsook
73 – NRG, Moon Seonghun
74 – Baby Vox, Kan Miyeon
75 – Click B, Kim Sanghyuk
76 – SS501, Heo Young Saeng
77 – FIN.K.L, Ok Juhyeon
78 – G.O.D, Denian
79 – Ttma, Soy
80 – 2PM Jaebeom
81 – SHINee, KEY
82 – Sugar, Park Sujin
83 – NRG, No Yumin
84 – 1TYM, Oh Jinhwan
85 – SNSD, Jessica
86 – Shinhwa, Lee Min Woo
87 – F.T.Island, Choi Minhwan
88 – Click B, Yoo Hosook
89 – Super Junior, Donghae
90 – Baby Vox, Shim EunJin
91 – Buzz, Son SungHee
92 – Supernova ,Geonil
93 – Taesaja, Kim hyungjun
94 – SNSD, Sooyoung
95 – Choi Changmin
96 – Milk, Seo Hyunjin
97 – Battle, Hwichan
98 – The TRAX, Jay Kim
99 -Sechs Kies, Kang Aunghoon
100 – Baby Vox Yoon Eunhye


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