This secret

This secret

Secretly I wished you'd stay again
Even when the hope almost vanished
Living in this situation
I'm used to it already
You, breaking my heart day by day
My falling tears

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

I don't even know how long this heart
Could continue holding it in
Our predictable story
Happens yet again
As time flies by, I stayed by your side
I still, wish you'd keep your promises (this secret)
Like an idiot, I waited and waited (I keep them)
This waiting shakes me deep inside
This secret, I keep them to myself

I know, I know, I still smiled
I don't know, if you knew
How much I trusted you
You keep on asking me to believe in you
I do, yes, I do (yet I'm being lied again)

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

One day, when my heart died on you
Don't you ask why
You should know, girl

You said you're sorry
But your action continues
It loses its meaning (you keep repeating)
The same predictable story again
I can only pray you'd stay

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

I want to cry (girl, these tears fell because of you)
I'm broken (girl, you're breaking this heart)
I lost my pride (girl, you're not playing fair)

By: Malilith F. Ila

I don't even know. This best describe how I feel right now. I'm probably the biggest idiot around. I trusted too much. To whom this is directed to, I still, still like your regular idiot, wished that you'd one day, keep your promises. Or maybe we'll just see one day when this heart really died on you, my hidden tears, my broken pride, you'll responsible for them all.