Voices of My Heart

Voices of My Heart

Those words that escaped me
Those words that you ignored
Before I could really convince you
That those were true
You left, leaving regrets

I couldn't do a thing, I couldn't even let my voice out
All I could do was only watch you
Walking away, leaving regrets

My heart called out to you, crying out
My voiceless scream echoes, it waves
When there's nothing left anymore
I wait for you, waiting for you

Those words that you looked away from, I love you...
Those words that I choked to say
There was no chance in convincing you
You don't share the same feelings
You left, leaving regrets

I couldn't do a thing, I couldn't even let my voice out
All I could do was only watch you
Walking away, leaving regrets

My heart called out to you, crying out
My voiceless scream echoes, it waves
When there's nothing left anymore
I wait for you, waiting for you

I couldn't really sleep
When my feet touched the floor, I cried
Remembering your fading back
What was left was your remaining shadows
I can't really breathe, my chest tightened
Walking away, leaving regrets

I screamed out to the dark nothingness again
Because I know you couldn't hear me
No matter how hard I try
I close my eyes, picturing your smiles
Whishing these memories would stay
Because you left, father away
I sat there, holding my own hand, holding on
Wishing that we might meet again someday

My heart called out to you, crying out
My voiceless scream echoes, it waves
When there's nothing left anymore
I wait for you, waiting for you

I waited, for the whole day
Minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years
You might walk here again
We might meet again
I waited for you

By: Malilith F. Ila

Inspired by Voice of My Heart by Infinite, I changed it to my own version, my own situation.

This secret

This secret

Secretly I wished you'd stay again
Even when the hope almost vanished
Living in this situation
I'm used to it already
You, breaking my heart day by day
My falling tears

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

I don't even know how long this heart
Could continue holding it in
Our predictable story
Happens yet again
As time flies by, I stayed by your side
I still, wish you'd keep your promises (this secret)
Like an idiot, I waited and waited (I keep them)
This waiting shakes me deep inside
This secret, I keep them to myself

I know, I know, I still smiled
I don't know, if you knew
How much I trusted you
You keep on asking me to believe in you
I do, yes, I do (yet I'm being lied again)

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

One day, when my heart died on you
Don't you ask why
You should know, girl

You said you're sorry
But your action continues
It loses its meaning (you keep repeating)
The same predictable story again
I can only pray you'd stay

Your words, are sweet, like candy
They are venomed with lies
You said, you'd stay
But you went away
Like a fool I believed in you again and again
This secret, I keep them to myself

I want to cry (girl, these tears fell because of you)
I'm broken (girl, you're breaking this heart)
I lost my pride (girl, you're not playing fair)

By: Malilith F. Ila

I don't even know. This best describe how I feel right now. I'm probably the biggest idiot around. I trusted too much. To whom this is directed to, I still, still like your regular idiot, wished that you'd one day, keep your promises. Or maybe we'll just see one day when this heart really died on you, my hidden tears, my broken pride, you'll responsible for them all.

Can't Stop Loving You

I'm posting my lyrics/poem here since I'm too lazy to open up my Blue Cresent. =[ I'm really in depressing mood. I missed him, I missed him more and more everyday. And I wrote this for him. Sometimes I wish, I just could wish that I could see him. One day, maybe at 2AM or 2PM.

Title : Can't Stop loving You
Writer : Malilith Ila

Stop running away from me
Stop ignoring me like I wasn't there
Because when you do, it hurts me
More than you could ever imagine

I miss you, I miss your smile, I want you back
I want to hold you, don't wanna hold myself back
I'll reach out for you, I'll come to you, back to you

There were times where I cried late at night
When the thoughts of not having you come running through
Why can't I just let you, why can't I let you go
Days after days, I keep thinking of you
I don't know how to stop it

And when you turn your back from me
I saw your shaking shoulders
Then i knew that you cried
But why did you leave
When you know I can't live without you

I miss you, I need you, I want you back in my life
I want to hold you, don't wanna hold myself back
I'll reach out for you, I'll come to you, back to you

I can't stop wondering how do you do
Even when I know I can't be with you
But still I wished every single night
Before I went to my dreamless sleep
That somehow you'll come back to me

Even if you forget about me someday
Even if you have someone else
I know I'll still pour my heart for you
Because I don't know how to stop loving you

ends

Really, I could sing to it. But I'm not that good yet. How do I train my vocal to sound good? I'm really dissapointed with my own singing. =[ I need more guidance...

Random thoughts:
Junsu-oppa, I love you!~ Today i made my first post to you. lol Funny, I was nervous. Saranghae yo!~
I need to sleep. I didn't sleep for the whole day and night yesterday. And my head is hurting like hell.
Yah! I am sooooo jealous with the girls around Taec-oppa. =[ Haha! I'm a bad fan. lol
I'm sleepy... and hungry... all in one.